IN YOUR OPINION, “HOW MANY CATHARTIC EVENTS DOES IT TAKE IN A PERSON'S LIFE BEFORE THEY DESIRE A DRASTIC CHANGE OF FOCUS AND SPIRITUAL INTENTION?”
I personally believe the answer to that question God only knows. But I do know this, “The Lord upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down” (Psalm 145:14). I have now had four emotionally charged, profound events in my life that produced drastic cathartic change. The first cathartic event in my life God hasn't given me a spiritual release to discuss. However, many have tried to guess in the past, assuming I came out of the sex industry. Which is not the case. This first event pertained to a personal family matter, that has long since been resolved.
The second event in my life that produced a drastic change within my spirit, was my brothers tragic death (reference story below: "Died On The Fourth Of July". My brother's death taught me life is too short to live in abuse, emotional rape, misery, sorrow and regret, and to always be true to your souls spiritual growth by not sacrificing your inner peace for security. God does not condone abuse!
Shortly after my brother died I proceeded with a divorce from an emotionally and physically abusive ex-husband who used deception, manipulation, power and control to his vindictive advantage. Divorce proved to incur a different set of problems as I faced “Parental Alienation” and financial difficulties. Despite on-going difficulties, ridding myself of the once nurtured “victim mentality” has proved to be the greatest self-discovery of personal strength and happiness I have ever made.
At the end of our journey on earth we alone are held responsible for our actions and choices in life. My affirmative action also speaks volumes to all those whom my life comes in contact with, declaring willful abuse is not to be tolerated under any circumstances and it is not God's will or your cross to carry for one individual to harm another.
My brother's tragic death produced a profound “awakening” within my life. It also prompted within my soul and spirit the firm belief that life truly is a gift from God. What we do with that gift is returned to God the generous and gracious giver, in loving thanks for His mercy, grace and love. God in His faithful sovereignty can change your life from remaining a “victim” to becoming a “victor”!
THIRD EVENT - PAST RELATIONSHIP WITH AN ON THE DOWN LOW SEX ADDICT
Ryan was a war hero, professed Christian by day, and a sex addict by night. His on the down low double life lead me straight into the ministry field, called by God. As a result I have counseled and helped many former sex industry workers get out of the business.
Ryan taught me that a child's soul is influenced for life, for better or worst, by the parents who raised him. Family dysfunction remains intact until someone has the courage and spiritual strength to change it. In Ryan's case, his emotional pain and sorrow was caused by his parents lack of acknowledged and demonstrated love, affirmation and positive attention. Ryan suffers from childhood attachment bonds only God can heal. In turn, he continues to allow his past to dictate his future. His smile is the mask that hides his hate, resentment, bitterness, and anger.
Due to experiencing Ryan's emotional struggle with sexual addiction, and his psychological fear of abandonment and intimacy, I realized that “we are the sum total of our circumstances and experiences in life (motives), unless we realize the spiritual significance behind the sum total of our life circumstances and experiences (growth)”. These were my sentiments when writing the God inspired short story, “My Sacred Journey Home” as well as the article “The Secret Law Of Attraction – A False Reality Of A Conceptual Manner” at: (www.synthiaesther.com).
As Christians we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28).
TARGETED INDIVIDUAL - MY FOURTH CATASTROPHIC - LIFE CHANGING EVENT
Most recently, (2009), I found myself living in a strange technological nightmare of sorts. Which upon investigative research and years of discovery, I came to realize I was a "Targeted Individual" (TI). When first attacked by these weapons beyond the pale, I believed them to be spiritual in nature, (Satanic attacks). Which they are most definitely not! I have interviewed other TI victims, who have also experienced and described these technological weapons beyond the pale. My TI experiences lead me in 2018, to coin the word: "Techchronicity" (reference ministry outreach website: www.techchronicity.com).
"Techchronicity" best describes the convoluted, twisted, intricately controlled networking matrix grid that manipulates both humanity and the earths infrastructure. Weather modification, human torture (Direct Energy Weapons), Voice To Skull - Voice of God Technology (V2k) - telepathic communication and subliminal control systems via the electronic grid have been made possible. The synchronization possibilities are mind boggling!
Silent Weapons for quiet wars against humanity and all life on earth, is a present day 'electronic harassment' reality, in an end times drama. The final act in this drama, is left up to God, and humanity to decide. Christians praying for intervention, being a worthy cause. Born again believers take refuge in God's power. He alone is our source and strength, a great help in a time of need (Psalm 46:1).
Occultists, Carl Jung defined synchronicity (having to do with the spiritual realm), and various acasual connections and experiences. Techchronicity, is the synchronization of time and events, produced by man made and caused, technical means and constructs. Present day technology and science is far more advanced than most people realize.
TECHCHRONICITY DEFINED
In simple terms: "Techchronicity productions are non-coincident, science and technology based mimicked synchronicity simulations."
Psycho-Technology: Interactive, strategic, targeted staged interactions affecting people, places, and things. Designed as a psycho-social behavior modification program in cause and effect.
Staged techchronicites serve political ponerology pathocracy totalitarian goals well. As seeded fallacy substructures serve to alter one's perception of reality, the genesis of human intuition and cognitive rationality changes.
Techchronicity productions are made possible via invoked AI data based algorithm predictive control systems. Utilization of the Internet of Things (IoT), technologization of bioinformation and bio-digital convergences. Coupled with multiple land based communication networked matrix grid systems, space placed satellite systems, and bio-physics interdisciplinary science applications.
I coined the word Techchronicity, to best describe the convoluted, twisted, intricately AI- controlled networking matrix grid that manipulates both humanity and the earths infrastructure. Internet of Things (IoT) cojoin with Internet of Bodies (IoB) via smart devises that serve as manipulating, monitoring systems. Synchronicities are mere invoked Techchronictiy productions as there are no coincidences involved in this technocracy-based power and control system.
Cognitive warfare, weather modification-manipulation, human torture (Direct Energy Weapons), Voice To Skull - Voice of God Technology (V2k) via sent signals that can be embedded (as is often cited), in the microwave frequency range- (450-700 MHz). Make what Alan H. Frey termed the microwave auditory effect a well noted reality. Telepathic communication-via chipped brain mind interface systems are likewise now a well proven reality. Neuralink, Synchron, Blackrock Neurotech, favor prominently on the Cyborg-Telepathy induced stream.
GOD HAS FOREWARNED HUMANITY OF JUST SUCH AN ANTICHRIST DYSTOPIAN FUTURE WITHIN HIS DIVINE INSPIRED BIBLICAL WORD. END TIME PROPHECIES (REFERENCE DANIEL, EZEKIEL, BOOK OF REVELATION, PER BIBLICAL EXAMPLES) LAY BARE NEW WORLD ORDER REALITIES.
DON'T ALLOW YOUR PAST TO DICTATE YOUR FUTURE! WE HAVE TWO CHOICES IN LIFE: “TO DEAL” OR “TO DWELL”
We can allow our past to control and dictate our future or we can learn from our past and allow it to refine us. Our personal choices in life determine our trials and our triumphs. Those who have gone through the trial triumphantly, are often better able to empathize with those who are in the midst of a trial. It is my prayer that humanity will see the harm of their self-imposed actions when contributing to the negativity and evil within the world. Abortion is murder, and if you don't think it is a baby than your not pregnant! Addiction, abuse and crime go together.
CO-DEPENDENCY IS A NEGATIVE COPING SKILL
Addiction and tolerance of abuse and dysfunction depletes the soul and spirit of a person, depriving them of spiritual growth and maturity. If you are a co-dependency addict, allowing such negative coping skills within your life and using them yourself, feeds those around you (including your children), with positive affirmation that they work. Thus, you are not only hurting yourself, you are depriving the people you love and care for the opportunity to grow past self-limiting coping skills and achievement of their spiritual destiny!
One cannot separate the action from the cause, and no one except God can complete you. As a result of having been involved with Ryan, I am now a sexual ethicist, not against sex at all, in fact I love sex the way God created it to be. Sexual relations outside of the love and ordinances of God is harmful to ones sense of wholeness, spiritual growth, development, divine intimacy, and loving expression. Sexual intimacy the way God intended it to be is Holy, God inspired (he created sex), and ordained. The closer I have gotten to God and His word of truth, the Bible, the more empowered, intuitive and spiritually creative I have become in all areas of my life, including my writing.
“WHAT ADVICE CAN YOU GIVE PEOPLE WHO HAVE GONE THROUGH A TROUBLING CHILDHOOD, OR AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP?”
Forgiveness is the key to inner healing.
Ephesians 4:32, “Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.” Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love (1st John 4:8). Forgiveness allows you to move forward in life with the firm resolve of not committing the same harm against another. Forgiveness is a positive spiritual solution to a negative situation. In order for history to not repeat itself you have to change the course of history. Forgiveness does not mean the person that harmed you has to be a part of your life, on the contrary, it releases the negative control they may still maintain on your life!
Colossians 3:12-15, “Therefore, as God's chosen people, Holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. (13) Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. (14) And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity. (15) Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful.”
“WHAT MOTIVATED YOU TO PROVIDE ALL YOU HAVE WRITTEN, SAID, AND DONE FOR FREE?”
When I was searching for answers on the Internet pertaining to “pornography and sex addiction”, and the physical and psychological manifestations I witnessed Ryan going through, I found every single Internet source was a gimmick for financial advancement. There were professional counselors offering seminars, retreats, and services for hire. Books to buy, guide and work books to follow, classes to attend, CD's and DVD's to purchase, including those that included subliminal affirmations. I found new age/hypnosis transformation tools with development keys to unlocking the conscious, unconscious, or sub-conscious mind.
While some of these tools may be extremely beneficial, (most especially professional therapy), not everyone can afford them. It is my personal opinion, with out God's spiritual intervention and strength no addiction resource will work in the long term (Philippians 4:13). Immediate “free” resources via the Internet, with first hand examples, stories and personal references, were often brief testimonies at best, with personal resolves limited in text, support and guidance, unless you purchased their product's. God 's Holy Spirit prompted me to write and provide for “free”, what I couldn't find readily available on the Internet.
If anything I have said, written, or conveyed has been beneficial, thank-God for the source and inspiration, for it is the root that supports the tree, not the tree supporting the root (Romans 11:18).
There are many free 12 step programs marketed and available for pornography and sex addicts, however, I found the 12 step programs (which are usually aimed towards helping addicts and their families with chemical addiction's), inadequate in relation to sex addiction. In the many personal interviews I have conducted and letter's I have received, many sex addicts claim they usually like to go to pornography and sex addition self help support programs because they get a sexual high (both physically and psychologically), when they are able to talk about sex!
In fact, sex addicts talking about their sexual experiences can trigger other sex addicts to act out even more. An alcoholic can leave their vodka or beer at home, a sex addict carries their addiction “release source” with them, as it is part of their physical body. There are also very few sexual addicts that have remained faithful in their resolve to cease their acting out. Their addiction to fantasy and masturbation continues to anchor and fuel the flames of their sexual obsessions. With world wide access to pornography on the Internet, sex addictive patterns of rape and crime continue to escalate.
"TECHCHRONICITY WEBSITE: www.techchronicity.com .
Once I became aware of the global electronic crime grid "surveillance" network, as a Targeted Individual, I was called by God to reach out in ministry in this much needed arena as well. The truth about these "silent weapons for quiet wars" , will one day be revealed. Until then, personal testimony by the thousands of TI's who have now come forward, will help gain the awareness needed to expose these crimes and criminals. As well as provide the much needed educational resources and support other victims will benefit from.
JESUS CHRIST CAN HELP YOU...
Most all of these Internet products, and/or person's offering such help and advice were out to make money, lots and lots of money. At one of my lowest point's of grief someone was there offering a hand, a way out, or they were promising to rid my “ex” of his troubling sexual addiction's, all for a fee. I have spent well over two thousand dollars on sex and psychology related research books in search of answers. The most informative books in my personal opinion, are referenced in my stories and/or articles.
I also met many, many, women and men, who simply didn't have the time to read “all” the current research, nor could they afford expensive retreats and seminars promising to rid them or their spouse of their sexual obsessive-compulsive or co-dependency addiction's. An addicts addiction rituals and manifestations may subside for a while, just like an illness can go into remission. But no one except Jesus Christ can help you “keep the addiction that binds you” dormant. He alone is your deliverer, your strength, shield, and your fortress (Psalm 144:2)..
“IT HAS ALL BEEN DONE BY FAITH”
The Holy Spirit is often referred to in the Bible as the counselor and/or helper (John 14:16-17), and it is in that spirit of giving that this free help has been provided. You will not see adds or marketing on any "Synthia Esther" ministry websites. In short, it has all been done by faith. Faith in people, faith in service, and most importantly, faith in God!
MY PRAYER
It is my prayer that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know Him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which He has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe (Ephesians 1: 17-19).
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